Your Heart is a StoryTeller
I want to dedicated this article to my wonderful friend Kelly, Tina, Mrs Samos and my Belzhe.
I recorded this message for myself tonight -
I am beautiful, I am smart, I am super sexy, I am super lovable, I am worth it. I choose me every day, I would choose me over and over and over again. I will never let myself down, I will never leave me behind, and I will never doubt of myself. I know exactly what I want : I know where I want to go, I know what I want in my personal life, I know what I want in my professional life; and at some point the right things/people will find me. I am very true to myself: in the past I was hesitating a lot and doubting about lots of things; but today more than ever, I know what I want, I know what I don’t want, I know what I make compromises for, what I don’t make compromises for, I am aware of what is worth it and what is not. And me, I am worth it and I deserve to be chosen every single second, minute of every single day of my life.
I had a meltdown this evening as a lot of real life stuff are falling apart around me and directly affecting me. Like my coach said to me the other day “Daoule, when things happen to you, they always come in a big chunk”. Indeed a huge chunk has fallen on me and is impacting several aspects of my life : it’s been a couple of days I am completely losing it. Let’s say that I am having my period and the full moon in my sign “capricorn” happened to be just yesterday.
So tonight, my emotions exploded and as I always do when things are not okay, I play my “girlplaylist” (I can share it if someone is interested), danced and told myself girl, time to go back on your feet again and fight back for yourself. I recorded the message above for myself because it is a good reminder that I am worth it. We often tend to forget how special and unique each one of us are. I also usually always start my articles with a quote; but this time it will be a “copy/paste” text that I am going to post here because it literally describes everything that is within my heart and my head at this exact time.
“ To you, if you’re so used to do things alone:
I hope you know it is not too late to let others in.
It’s not too late breath deep and trust:
there is still a path that leads to meaningful companionship.
Give yourself permission to give this space.
Give yourself time to not have to figure this out in one day.
You have become so accustomed
To handling everything on your own,
And being extra strong because you had to be,
At times, it might make you feel weak
To really soften into the need for companionship.
There are a lot of unknows before you,
And this is also true: you were not meant to face them alone.
You were not meant to travel through this without support.
Yes, there are people you can’t rely on. There are people who will
Let you down, and cause you to wonder why you asked for help in
The first place. And there will also be people who defy those odds.
There will also be people who do show up”. Family members, friends, strangers, people you are getting to know.
“Even here, you are worthy of this. You are worthy of the pursuit of
Healthy relationships.
Find peace in knowing that it’s okay if this takes time to cultivate.
Find grace in knowing that many others are seeking to cultivate connection too. And there is time for you to find one another.
So as you carry on with hope and patience, carry on knowing that connection is worth the pursuit. You have been so strong for so long but that doesn’t mean you have to carry on alone.
You are worthy of spaces where you feel free to breathe and just be.
You are worthy of healthy relationships as you prepare for the rest of the journey.”
Keep your heart open…
My heart is a storyteller of my 38 years of life : full of joy, happiness, dancing like it is the last time, genuinely laughing out loud and being happy, falling in love, seeing the world, listening to strangers’ adventures; but also death, sickness, disappointment, sadness, lots of tears and heartbreaks. Through all this, I will keep my good heart wide open and my empathy and keep doing good because this is the only way. I am in peace with myself.
Today, I am saying thank you to you:
Thank you to my Warrior Kelly for your unconditional love : you are swimming through violent waves but you are not alone in this.
Thank you Tina for letting me in in your life : it is a precious gift that I do not take for granted.
Thank you Mrs Samos for checking on me. Your heart is pure gold and you are not alone. You are a fighter.
Thank you to my Belzhe for being crazy with me at any time of the day and night.
